An update on life

So here is what has happened since I last posted anything on my blog of sorts....

1) I officially lost 100lbs. I am now actually at a consistent 235lbs. It feels great and I am in the most amazing shape of my life

2) I am taking 19 credits and am teaching 7 students. The reason why I have been so busy and not posting blogs. I will start back soon. I promise!

I am almost there...

I see myself... getting that 240 pounds... its so close I can feel it.. Literally less than 10 pounds away from the victory of my life which started 6 months ago. I sit here and think to myself the rewards, the pain, the struggle, the sacrifices I have made to help my body and to help my self. And now that is slowly but surely coming to an end.

I finally am starting to realize who I am, what I am becoming, how I can change the world. I can finally sit down and do things for me and not because of anybody else. I am finally becoming that free man.

I have to work in the morning. So everyone get a good night's rest and be proud of who you are tomorrow morning!

The real thoughts of the single man.

I think about you all the time... Im not gonna lie you have definitely been on my mind lately. Everything I have done has been for myself and for someone to appreciate it like yourself. I know what I did was entirely wrong. I know we cant make up because of our past. I don't know if I want to make up... I just want to know that you are at least happy. You deserve the best in the world and only the best in the world. You made my world turn upside down for 2 years and that's all it took to realize you were the one..

And its not like I can go and re create my life. I just can't. I am not that man who just goes and screws around with other women. I want a solid relationship and what we had was as solid as gold. You were the one for me. And then my stupid thoughts and a another woman, a woman who turned out to just completely cut me out of her life for my best friend made me lose you. You wanna know the truth? That IS the truth.

Do I regret my decision. Absolutely not. Why am I saying this then? I don't know honestly. I feel like it just needs to come out somewhere. Its not like I have any friends I can really tell this to. They were all against you to begin with. Why? Because they were jealous of what we had. Turns out they won in the end. The decision that I made did not hurt me then, but deep inside it crawled through my body and decided to burn a hole in my heart, a hole you used to fill.

That decision is now the reason I have lost 85 pounds, the reason why I have never had sex with another woman (or kissed for that matter.) I don't like the way it feels, it doesn't feel the same. It never will.

I hope this somehow gets to you. somehow, someway. Whether it be through an email or a bottle floating in the ocean it is meant for you, just like you were meant for me.

Stop Eating Chocolate Challenge

Stop Eating Chocolate Challenge

I just found this website called experienceproject.com. I am definitely going to try this website out as it is a source to help motivate your self!

Trying something new

So I have been reading a book on fitness that is focusing on bare feet. It really got my attention. So I started reading it and it is fascinating the way that he talks about being able to do things with your bare feet.

I would definitely recommend it. Its called Barefoot Running by Michael Sandler. Read it, your mind will be blown.

College Tuition

So I just got my college tuition bill for the semester. It is lower which I knew it would be, but some of the things that they are trying to get us to pay for are ridiculous... I guess that's life for ya though.

Just wanted to let y'all know that I love my job. Its pretty cool

Im now going to play bass... talk to y'all later!

the days are going by very quickly.

hello all,

sorry for not typing in a while. I know I have a lotttttttttt to talk about. So let me go get this thing real quick and I'll be right back....



okay... now that I am back... Walmart went from good to bad to just plain ugly... Like starting off we had this awesome supervisor and he really didn't care and it was just plain awesome. I mean we were getting work done... Then the weekend came and a different supervisor came in. The woman was a pure bitch... I swear like on a scale from 1-20 her attitude was like a 400.... I have never worked so hard in my life or sweated that much (and trust me I have gotten 900 cabinets off of a truck by myself before.) I never ever wanna touch cardboard again. I just want to stay away from that place when that women was there. The guy that I was working with quit halfway through 2 nights before the overall job ended and so I had to buff the next three nights (which buffing walmart is about 15 miles a night).

However I did find a new job, and I am so far happy with it.

It is at a place called Johnson Control Incorporation. They make car batteries (yes like your car battery that you have). They have over 500 machines and a lot of oil and lead in the plant. My job is to take each machine, find every valve on the machine, spray the valve the correct color with spray paint. and then label the pipe such as air valve or lead valve or stored energy.

Now you might think that this is a little weird and childish.... However if someone turns on a stored energy valve thinking it is an air valve and then does not turn it off, the plant could blow up. Or if someone things they are turning on an air valve and they turn on a lead valve they could be intoxicating themselves. I don't know about you, but to me that sounds like I am saving lives in the future (because people have literally died from cases like this).

So now that I consider myself a here (and I make more money then I did at walmart) I have been spending my mula on some stuff. Specifically for my car. I just bought 2 pairs of speakers for my car and I really want to get an amp and sub woofer 12" in my car. However I don't know if I can because I don't know if I can fit my instrument with a sub woof and all my other accessories with it.  I don't know.. I will have to think about it some more.

There is nothing else to talk about besides that. I have actually found someone back home that I am kinda interested in... Idk why but I just have that feeling. Last time I talked about someone on here though that relationship went south very quickly. But anyways. I hope everyone is having a wonderful Monday night. and have a happy, safe, wonderful week!