Trying to hard

Do you believe that you can try to hard?

I have always told myself no. But I believe I now have thoughts about changing that.

I have lost 80 pounds, am getting a successful job plan and college degree and still try to push harder. It is like an obsession to be the best I can be. But I still wonder if that is good enough.

And I want to know what people think about me because of it. I know most of you will say "don't care what others think" and I agree but what about that special someone. I mean anybody could technically be that "special someone" could they not. If I look bad in front of them what happens to me?

I just wish I could be happy with myself for once. but I probably will never be that way. I just need to accept it.